Fresh Starts...
It has been such a tough week for me emotionally. Carrie & Anthony took Maya, Kai and Addison away from me and moved them to Oregon. Ü It has been hard. I especially had a hard day yesterday with them not in church & me not being able to see Maya with her primary class or me being able to go in and check on Kai in the nursery. I knew that Sunday would be hard... I couldn't even sing a song without breaking out in tears! Even the Happy Birthday song put me 'in hysterics!!'. My good friend Cheryl was so sweet and just kept giving me a 'wink' as if to say you will be ok. I just stood in the back of the Primary room, crying. It was ugly... but I made it through. Had a Terrible headache by the time i got home from church & so i laid down to take a nap. I NEVER take naps, but yesterday i slept for like 3 hours! man! i was wiped out!
By Yesterday evening... I needed to "get out" and try something new and scary for me. I actually attended a singles fireside!!! It was WAY out of my comfort zone! & very hard for me to do. I almost didn't go like three or four times. I had hoped to go with someone, but that didn't work out... but I still went! All by myself! yikes! Ü Good thing i had that nap! But i did it. It actually ended up turning into another emotional roller coaster by the end of the evening, but at least I took that first step!
With all this CRAZY emotion, I knew that i had some serious steam that needed to be worked OUT! This morning I had a GREAT workout/run! With all the emotional roller coaster this week.. and then yesterday afternoon... I just wanted to run my heart out this morning. I pushed myself HARD... and it felt so good when I was done! Something else that helped this morning... It was SO NICE to be able to see Kent & Dan, two faces that i love so much, this morning and get warm hugs from them both! I feel so much better now!
SO.... Here is to fresh starts and new beginnings and working through craziness and sadness and making the best out of what is in front of me!
By Yesterday evening... I needed to "get out" and try something new and scary for me. I actually attended a singles fireside!!! It was WAY out of my comfort zone! & very hard for me to do. I almost didn't go like three or four times. I had hoped to go with someone, but that didn't work out... but I still went! All by myself! yikes! Ü Good thing i had that nap! But i did it. It actually ended up turning into another emotional roller coaster by the end of the evening, but at least I took that first step!
With all this CRAZY emotion, I knew that i had some serious steam that needed to be worked OUT! This morning I had a GREAT workout/run! With all the emotional roller coaster this week.. and then yesterday afternoon... I just wanted to run my heart out this morning. I pushed myself HARD... and it felt so good when I was done! Something else that helped this morning... It was SO NICE to be able to see Kent & Dan, two faces that i love so much, this morning and get warm hugs from them both! I feel so much better now!
SO.... Here is to fresh starts and new beginnings and working through craziness and sadness and making the best out of what is in front of me!
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